existence
saudade
if only
you could see
what I see in you
hear what
I cannot say
you are
what no words
can contain
like all that is sacred
treasured, in my heart
you remain
you are..
you are to me
more than a story
more than a memory
kintsugi
tell me
about the ways
in which you are human
flawed, broken, vulnerable
and all you have endured
in this thing called life
I promise
I will show you
there is beauty
in that brokenness
that makes you
more lovable in my eyes
more precious in my heart
than any illusion
of ‘perfect’
ever will
I will continue
to love you
despite your scars
I will love you
more
for them
chaotic stillness
Life goes.. forward
or does it trace its way back
one encounter at a time
to where it all began
like a jigsaw
that you try to piece
your whole life
only to realize
it was already complete
in the name of ‘experience’
you stumble
diving face first
into your destiny
resisting, accepting, becoming
what you were meant to be
faces, forgotten faces
surfacing from abyss
at the time of need
others with time
sink to the bottom
in the deep
faces, traces, erase it
a hand once held
an embrace once felt
that left a taste of divinity
this fading world
sweeps past
so quickly
where is the affinity?
cradling fragments
embedded in the core
of true Reality
I persist
hearing the memory
of a quiet surrender
long before
I can remember.
the calling
You are
with me
within me
every second
of every moment
Yet, I live the truth
of ‘You’ away from ‘I’
Yet I feel
this intense separation
from home
Like an unborn child
pulled away
from womb
Like the thirsty desert
that longs for rain,
an affliction
with no remedy for pain.
Sleepless at night
restless for days
Beloved, your memory
stirs me awake.
My trembling lips
heaped with sighs,
endless tears, in your name
are now running dry.
Without you, my essence,
how am I
to stay alive?
Calling out
my entire being
leaps,
gasping
for a breath ..
I miss you.
Take me home.
together
In you,
my essence dissolves
like sugar in water.
Beyond you,
I see no other.
Who was I
when I was without you?
Who am I
now that you are here?
adrift
I wandered with a hunger
that only your love
satisfied.
Secrets unveiled with time
pure gratitude remained
for all that I was denied.
As the vision got clearer
chaos collapsed, doors opened
even those I never knew.
Now I keep finding myself
lost in the mystery
that is You.
…..
Photography courtesy Ahmed M. Abdulazim
season’s greetings :)
My lovely readers,
Just wanted to take a moment to thank you all for being a part of this space 🙂 Appreciate each and every one of you. Writing and poetry has been a sacred experience for me and if you can resonate with even a single post here, I’m humbled and grateful. As I went for a walk this beautiful morning, a realization surfaced that I thought I’d share. Three things of value that can’t be compromised – the company of loved ones, taking time to feed the soul and enjoying simple pleasures of life.
May this holiday season bring you warmth, love and all that you’re looking for.
Love and Light always,
Himani B
clay
Light
has always been there
never beyond reach
flickering
at times flaming wild
defined spaces
clear boundaries
but to have a heart
that has bled much
loved much
it is in darkness
that the human in me
comes to life.
∙ tenderheartmusings ∙ 